My life before me now feels like a blank slate: endless in its possibilities, its potential for magnificent, overwhelming joy, greatness, laughter, and abundance! I am now open to receiving this tidal wave of blessings that is heading my way. Thank you!
I am entering this New Year, and really this next portion of my life, with a new sense of knowing. I have lived a life that has helped guide me on a path to greater clarity and ease. It’s also something I wanted.
This sense of ease was something that was once missing in my life. I couldn’t relax. I couldn’t let go of my struggle or need to control. I couldn’t let go of my fighting against conditions, others, but mostly myself. I couldn’t let go of my disallowance. I held fast to my insecurities, my fears, my comparisons, my separations, and my judgments. I held myself apart from who I truly was, but I didn’t know that I was doing that. I didn’t consciously know I was doing that, anyway. And I hadn’t yet discovered for myself that there was another way to LIVE my life…
Despite this initial separation with my inner truth, there was something out there calling for me, beckoning me, welcoming me back home to the ease and comfort of my joyful life experience. So, here I am! I’m here for the fun that life has in store for me NOW!
I first opened up to my inner voice (inner listening) three years ago at a yoga and meditation retreat in Indonesia. At the retreat, we were gifted 32 hours of silence over the New Year leading into 2015. After spending just 5 of these hours in wakeful silence, I began discovering this voice within that had something to say to me. The voice surprised me for three reasons: 1) it was quite active, relentless, you could say; 2) it held very clear and strong opinions; 3) I had never really given it the time of day, before this point in my life.
As I listened to my inner dialogue, I felt exposed. I started writing down what this voice was saying, the thoughts I was thinking. I began having a written conversation with this voice within. There were areas within me that were hurting: these unprocessed, unresolved parts of me. These hurts had been etched on my heart for some time, taking up life energy and space.
My first step was to bring awareness to these hurts, these thoughts, these feelings, these parts of me I had pushed down, buried, and tried to ignore for a large part of my life. Integral to this awareness was to offer my response a compassionate coloring. One of my greatest spiritual teacher’s Louise Hay liked to say, “But you didn’t know.” She’s right! I didn’t know that I held these beliefs that were untrue. Or maybe I didn’t know I was holding onto old hurts, feelings of judgment, distrust, or resentments. The reason these parts of me felt so bad, life draining, was that they were untrue. Oh so blessedly untrue!
My next step was to slowly allow the abundance of love, compassion, and connection back IN. To open myself up to receiving the love that I so freely gave out and saw in others. It was time to start seeing the good in me, too! I started to bring kinder, more loving, and compassionate care to myself, more still with each and every day.
In the process, I discovered that this feeling of love had never actually ‘left me’ (as I had once thought). Instead, I had just closed myself off to it without knowing my own agency in that. Gladly, this feeling of love and utter wellbeing busted through the armor I had placed around my heart.
Another spiritual teacher who’s helped guide me, Gabby Bernstein, had written at the start of last year that, “The times we are living in require our commitment to love.” I am here to LIVE my life fully, freely, and magnificently from my loving, tender, radiant, and compassionate heart. I choose to lead from love and be guided by my own love. I am ready!
One thing I love is writing. I’ve always enjoyed it. It also feels really good to share my writing, my voice, and my perspective with others. This is what brings me to the page today: to write, to create, to explore, to connect, to share, to listen, to learn, to discover, to inspire, and to spread this overflowing feeling I have, one of tenderness, compassion, love, joy, and ease as we enter into this new year.
Through this incredible journey of life I’ve lived thus far, what I now know in life is this:
I am perfectly created. So are you!
We are all doing the best we can with our level of awareness and understanding. Show yourself more compassion. Do it now! Show others compassion, too! Not a one of us has it ‘all figured out’ [that would be B-O-R-I-N-G!]. Would you really want to read a book from finish to start? We are ALL learning along the way….and the best part of all, we can choose to feel excited by the not knowing, the unfolding that is before us now [my current mood of choice: gleeful!].
Life reinforces what we believe, so think thoughts that feel good to you. Allow yourself to dream out loud: outrageously, ridiculously, crazily. Dreams are limitless! You deserve the wildness of your heart and the wildness of your dreams.
Start with you first, bringing more love, compassion, and understanding to your inner experience of life. Start noticing how you talk to yourself: inner dialogue or in conversation with other people. You are oh so precious and worthy! One of my favorite practices to remember this love for myself is to simply place my hand over my heart, feeling into the warmth, connection and energy here.
We all want to feel good. And we are meant to feel good! Let this good feeling be your daily guide.
Our emotions are amongst the greatest gifts we’ve been given in this lifetime. Listen to them. Honor them. Be oh so kind to yourself as you process your moment-by-moment experience of life. Allow your emotions to guide you: Home.
We are built to connect.
We are more alike than different.
Our life is a precious gift we’ve been given—not just for ourselves to remember this truth, but also to discover and share our life’s gift with others.
Relax more. Listen more. Bask more. Pay greater attention to the flow—in and out—of your breath. Remember: there is no “doing” in human being. Allow space. Be you. The world needs one of you, that’s why there is *only* one!
Happy New Year! Wishing you overflowing amounts of joy, laughter, love, and ease.
Thanks for reading & playing along,